Shaded

My shades,
They tint everything, to a dark, dark gray
I see in monochrome
I like it
It is easier to see;
Easier to do things without being blinded;
It is comfortable.
My shades,
They block out the light
Block out the sunshine trying to reach my skin
Alter the reality
Change it into an alternate world
That is comfortable.
But when the shades are removed
the world is more vibrant
more vivid
more real
but I cannot take off the shades
because I am comfortable
and afraid
for what I do not know

This is my ode to myself and everyone dealing with a mental illness that shades your perception. I believe we can do it, and support you in your journey to remove the shades.

 

 

 

Poem and photography originals by D. Ngo, all rights reserved for Up Into the Clouds

Willy-Nilly

You go about

willy-nilly,

Doing what you want.

but do you realize

what you cause

for everyone else?

Oh Willy-Nilly,

Do you not realize

how silly?

Spontaneous,

but not considerate.

Haphazard

beyond safety.

Risking

beyond reward.

 

A short, reflective poem I wrote via the Daily Post prompt of the day. Thank you for the read!

via Daily Prompt: Willy-nilly

 

Poetry an original by D. Ngo.

Bubbles in my Head

If you are living in my head
You rather be dead
But do I want to be dead?
Hell no.

I want to be free of the continuous thoughts that trap me
In a bubble
That I created, but cannot destroy

I want to be alive
I want to live, to really, really live,
I want to break free of me,
But wouldn’t that be death?

No, I do not want a head transplant from some Italian surgeon
No, that will do me no good
I just want to be me, but free.

Pop.

Poetry an original by D. Ngo, and All Rights Reserved for Up Into the Clouds.

Encouraged to Photograph

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So, a few months ago I bought a cheap, old, used, DSLR camera and learned I LOVEEEDDD taking pictures. Soon after, I created this blog as a creative outlet and an outlet for my anxiety. It has done wonders for me in encouraging and motivating me.

Seeing everyone’s posts really puts life into perspective. I wrote poetry and short stories briefly in English/creative writing classes– but this blog has me writing again, and writing often.

Well, thanks to all the encouragement, I started taking pictures for people-life events, portraits, head shots, etc., and I am loving it! I also built up the courage to splurge on a nicer camera, which I will be getting soon, and I am super excited to take and share some beautiful pictures with you all!

I never knew this blog would lead to such beautiful things, and even though I am far from a professional, with a lot to learn, I am making some rainy day money taking pictures(:

So in essence, this is a thank you for all the wonderful people who follow or have checked out my blog(:

This is an amazing community I am glad we are all a part of!

The Flame

Ignite already.

My goodness!

Oh there,

The spark caught.

The flame is burning,

Let’s keep it going.

It sputters;

I watch

I hope

I squint

I hold my hands around it,

protecting it from the elements.

I coddle it

Like a newborn.

It dims,

I freeze.

But then,

It brightens.

I exhale.

And the

flame

keeps

burning…

 

Photography and poem originals by D. Ngo, all rights reserved for Up Into the Clouds.

 

Versatile Blogger Award

I want to give copious thanks to Harmony Loves Exploring for nominating me for the versatile blogger award, she is so sweet and strong, you should go check out her page! It is extremely uplifting to have someone else acknowledge your work. With that being said, I hope we can all continue to encourage other bloggers and show support for each other.

versatile blogger

Seven Facts about Me:

  1. I loveee animals, I recently acquired a pet bunny named Piper and love her to pieces–expect pictures soon!
  2. I conduct research on infectious diseases with neurons and have interests in public health. I have a deep love for both science and the arts, that is why I have interests in public health and research as well as play the guitar, do photography, belly dance, and write poetry.
  3. I am currently in my third year of college, I am studying Biology and Spanish with a minor in Medicine and Society.
  4. I would love to start doing portraits for people; I recently found my love for photography. So if you would like to be one of my models and live somewhere in/near Virginia, Contact me!
  5. I love nature and hope to eventually backpack the Pacific Crest Trail.
  6. I live my life with anxiety, and some depression.
  7. I love connecting with all different types of people and appreciate every site visit, like, and comment, and if you ever need someone to talk to, I am here! We all have our struggles.

Here are my nominees for Versatile Blogger:

I know I did the max amount of bloggers, but I took the time to consider all of the bloggers I love! I just love all of y’alls blogs so much and want to thank you for the effort you put into your posts(:

Rules for the nominations: Thank the person who nominated you. Nominate up to 15 bloggers for this award and inform them. Share seven facts about yourself. Put the logo of Versatile Blogger in your post and display the rules also.